That's exactly what I'm feeling right now. When you are faced with two choices and sooner or later are expected to pick one. Oh how I wish I could have the best of both worlds but life is about making choices, isn't it?
So I'm about to become a first time mom in a month's time and such a great honor to be responsible for a new life albeit life is sure to be more hectic and challenging than it already has. But I'm also working full time so yeah it's a choice between full time mom or keeping my job. I'd love to be at home watching the growth of my baby, because you just can't turn back the time and you know how fast baby grows! And I love the memory of my own childhood. I grew up being accustomed to my mom's cooking and baking, to having my mom waiting for me after school, every single day. That's the kind of environment I want my baby to have. But with me working full time, err that would be a challenge. On the other hand, I love my job. I love what I'm doing and contributing. I can't imagine life without working, without meeting new people, without my own income haha.
I pretty much know what option I should take. When the other option is about the welfare of your baby, you know in the back of your mind what you should choose. But it's sooo damn hard to give up the other one. Well, I think it's time for me to start planning my own little business *grin* I pray for it becomes a reality next year so I can work from home and be near my family.