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At the Crossroad

That's exactly what I'm feeling right now. When you are faced with two choices and sooner or later are expected to pick one. Oh how I wish I could have the best of both worlds but life is about making choices, isn't it?

So I'm about to become a first time mom in a month's time and such a great honor to be responsible for a new life albeit life is sure to be more hectic and challenging than it already has. But I'm also working full time so yeah it's a choice between full time mom or keeping my job. I'd love to be at home watching the growth of my baby, because you just can't turn back the time and you know how fast baby grows! And I love the memory of my own childhood. I grew up being accustomed to my mom's cooking and baking, to having my mom waiting for me after school, every single day. That's the kind of environment I want my baby to have. But with me working full time, err that would be a challenge. On the other hand, I love my job. I love what I'm doing and contributing. I can't imagine life without working, without meeting new people, without my own income haha.

I pretty much know what option I should take. When the other option is about the welfare of your baby, you know in the back of your mind what you should choose. But it's sooo damn hard to give up the other one. Well, I think it's time for me to start planning my own little business *grin* I pray for it becomes a reality next year so I can work from home and be near my family.

BittersweetEva Jovita Yudha
Busy March

*sigh* I have to begin this post with some depressing notion.

I don't know how I'm gonna get through the whole March, looking at my calendar and all I can do is taking a deep breath. I'm dragging my way from deadline to deadline and who could have foreseen that multiple projects sinking their deadline claws this month? Well, I gotta admit though that I was looking for this trouble myself… in a way. I'm a kind of person who got motivated and really working seriously if I'm literally hours away from deadline! I'm not joking. Even if I have some time to slowly clearing away my job tasks, I won't do it until very last minute. That's the only time where I can work nonstop, well, how can't I if deadline is only hours away? haha. I know this gotta change, can't keep living my job life like this. I mean, for the past few days, I dreamt about work, I was working even in my dream!! Crazy.

But then, there's always a light at every dark tunnel, isn't it? Well, well, well, in my case, that bright, shining light is the prospect of going back to Bali at the end of this month! On top of that, coincidentally, our very best family-friends will be in Bali as well. The last time I saw them was in December 2011 helping out in our wedding. Looking forward to having an awesome break with them.

Also, just this morning on my way to a client's office, I saw a poster of Russell Peters' show in Singapore on March 25, 2013. I mean, kyaa~!!!! Am such a biggie fan of his and never in my dream would I imagine myself watching him perform live. Hubby bought tickets for us and oh I can't wait. What an energy and mental booster that is. 

But then, even amid all this chaos both in work and private life, now and then there are great little things that bring joy back into our life. Those moments are like firecracker, small but powerful to lift up our spirit and I'm grateful for that. Small gatherings with friends, sharing and opening up are really making such a big differences in life indeed.

Okay, gotta back to work...